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[punnier]

meme here eventually

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[punnier]

It's - [ Suddenly, they pause, like they had the thought before.. they blink a bit, slowly, expression confused. ]

I.. [ (It was there, and then...) ] ..I don't remember.

[sacredpath]

[ah. okay.]

...That's alright. Do you struggle to remember things?

[punnier]

[ A flinch. ]

..Yeah. Sometimes.

[sacredpath]

It's alright. I'm the same - there are things I only remember in the general, not the specific.

[punnier]

..Really? Has it.. always been that way for you, too?

[sacredpath]

[shaking her head.]

...Well, how would I know. But as far as I'm aware, this is something that happened recently. I had to give up some of my memories to maintain secrecy for my order.

[punnier]

An exchange?

[ Is it better or is it worse knowing you had to? ] For me, it just.. happened one day. No warning.

[sacredpath]

Not an exchange, so much as proof of my devotion. My goddess demands much of her followers.

[...]

Really? None at all? No idea why it happened, even?

[punnier]

And no better way to express devotion than that.

[ It makes sense. Quietly, their fingers idly squeeze their own hand as her questions come. ]

..No. I don't even remember what I was doing the day it happened. Just.. suddenly, everything before that moment was gone. Erased.

[sacredpath]

[oh.]

Well. It was the same for me. Everything before that moment erased. But I know that it's something I chose to happen to me.

[punnier]

[ ..Ah. ]

I see. [ Subconsciously, they tuck into their cloak collar a bit more to hide. ] Whereas I didn't choose it.

[ Similarly, but not exact. ]

[sacredpath]

As far as you know.

[there's really no way to know, probably.]

Still, it's disorienting.

[punnier]

[ A nod. ]

Yeah, it's pretty disorienting. And.. I think a bit worrying for other people. When you can't remember.

[sacredpath]

I don't know that I've ever had people worry about it.

[or maybe more that she doesn't let them worry, she's too good at assuring that it's fine.]

[punnier]

[ A nod, they can understand that.. ]

Helps if it doesn't come up too often.

[sacredpath]

Sure. It's a disadvantage in party games and making small talk, but otherwise, it doesn't really... cause all that many problems.