[ That would be fine with them, with what they've gone through already.
Cute, petting zoo... they can find a place to sit, still gingerly holding her hand in his. As he watches the animals, before looking over to her at the first question with his lips parting and
promptly closing. (..busted) ]
I'm... [ (so so tired, feels like the universe has left me behind, that i've ruined everything) Those thoughts fester, shrinking as the words become more crueler, demeaning to themselves, things like 'deserve it' and such. But they quickly shake their head. ] ..I'll be fine?
[ That's technically not saying they're fine? Just.. that they will be. ]
[ elysia would want them to be free of loops and whatever hold the universe has on them first an foremost. she waits for them to speak, petting any baby that comes up for pets with zero hesitation.
she listens to their thoughts, and she hums. ]
I'd like that to be true. I think the ties the universe has on you should be a little looser on you here, but...
[ executions have a way of bringing back every trauma. ]
You haven't ruined everything. Things like deserving... they don't have a place with what you did.
[ she's not polite enough to ignore thoughtshare. ]
[ Watches as a baby lion cub just reaches with its big furry paws in grabby motions. Carefully, reaches to scoop up this large bean like oh stars it's so affectionate help. Though honestly probably a bit more spooked when she replies - because funny enough i think Elysia is the only person to have directly talked to Siffrin's thoughts like this.
Well, outside the entirety of this week when Siffrin spent almost all of it muted hehe. STILL, EMBARASSED... ]
..But, even if afflicted.. It was. Still me. [ (my hands that did it, my anger, the justification when I really thought about it) And if that isn't nauseating to think about. The kill feeling justified, even though it was someone so important to them. ]
It depends on perspective. What's bad to one person isn't bad to another. After all, I know there are some who think I can made up of a lot of bad things.
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there's a small nod, carefully reaching to take her hand. He would follow her anywhere, honestly. ]
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they go somewhere more private. elysia likes the petting zoo because baby animals are always comforting. ]
How are you feeling, Siffrin? Don't tell me you're fine, okay?
[ they both know that'd be a lie. ]
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Cute, petting zoo... they can find a place to sit, still gingerly holding her hand in his. As he watches the animals, before looking over to her at the first question with his lips parting and
promptly closing. (..busted) ]
I'm... [ (so so tired, feels like the universe has left me behind, that i've ruined everything) Those thoughts fester, shrinking as the words become more crueler, demeaning to themselves, things like 'deserve it' and such. But they quickly shake their head. ] ..I'll be fine?
[ That's technically not saying they're fine? Just.. that they will be. ]
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she listens to their thoughts, and she hums. ]
I'd like that to be true. I think the ties the universe has on you should be a little looser on you here, but...
[ executions have a way of bringing back every trauma. ]
You haven't ruined everything. Things like deserving... they don't have a place with what you did.
[ she's not polite enough to ignore thoughtshare. ]
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Well, outside the entirety of this week when Siffrin spent almost all of it muted hehe. STILL, EMBARASSED... ]
..But, even if afflicted.. It was. Still me. [ (my hands that did it, my anger, the justification when I really thought about it) And if that isn't nauseating to think about. The kill feeling justified, even though it was someone so important to them. ]
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she listens to their words and their thoughts and nods. ]
Do you still think it was justified? Do you still feel that angry?
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For a moment longer, they stay quiet before.. ]
No. I don't. Uruha is.. [ (important, my friend, almost family) ] Killing him would never be justified. And.. right now, no. I don't feel that angry.
[ Not right now. Just.. tired. Buries their face a little into the lion cub fluff. ]
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she watches them for a second. ]
See? Then that was less you and this is more you. Even if it was still you, what's more you is more important.
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Closes their eye, as the lion cub just BIG PURRS like a motor car. Fluffy. ]
What if what is more me is... [ (also bad?) ]
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[ she picks up a baby bunny that hops up to her. ]
What's so wrong with being bad?
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..Everything? Can you ever really.. trust someone if they're nothing but made up of a lot of bad things?
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[ Which idiod proves her point but he really is like ...? Elysia bad..? Seems wrong. ]
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[ she gestures from her to them. ]