[ The grab of their hands do startle them a little, their smile stuttering and they feel their breath hitch. Because they don't know what to do in this scenario. The script already played out differently in Siffrin's mind after all. Whether a rewind, take it all back, or a move on to be forgotten in the stretch of time. But her words give them pause, their eye watching her, the small intake of breath and their heart
sinks. It sinks. And part of them wants to know why, why she thinks that. A falter in that moment that allow that grip on their hand but, one gently pulls itself free. But not too far away, not at all, it comes to gently cup her cheek and their foreheads meet together again despite their earlier beginning backpedaling.
A small breath in, and out. It's okay. If just this once.. he tilts his face, gently kissing her. A share of affection, fond for her. Pulling back after, ignoring the way their heart hammers, and that swimming loneliness that churns in their own chest. ]
..Neither are you. [ If that's the implication here. If Siffrin cannot be the problem, then.. they don't want to hear that she is. When there are so many reasons. The Universe, for one. If things like fate exist out there. Those loops awaiting their immediate return. ] ..I don't think I could..
[ (ever really regret how i feel) when it's brought them so much comforting warmth, through letters after letter since her departure before. ]
[ the kiss does take her by surprise, after siffrin retreated the first time, but something about it also makes her feelings settle. siffrin is so sweet, too sweet sometimes.
she closes her eyes. she shakes her head and opens her eyes. her lips curive into a small smile, grateful most of all. ]
Thank you, Siffrin. [ she pulls back a little, but her hold on their hands is still sure, even if it is a bit looser. she doesn't want to seem like she's forcing anything, one way or another. ]
I don't want you to regret anything. When you told me you wanted to remember everything you could of me, it made me unreasonably happy. I thought... you could come to understand me.
I do love you, Siffrin, but it may not be in the same way as you.
You don't have to say anything more, but I don't like leaving things unsaid.
[ Siffrin lets her pull back, ready to let go if that's what she wants, ever in their mind that they're asking for too much. To needy. Too clingy. Forcing people in situations where they feel they have to love them and it's.. it really eats at them. Sharper than any blade. But they keep their lid on, to not spill those emotions over. Holding onto this loose hold with that same thought in mind, if she wants to let go that's fine. Even if they want nothing more than to hold on.
Even as they listen, when she comes to say they don't need to say anything more.. they still keep their gaze fixed down. ]
..It's alright. I didn't really... [ Expect anything. Go into this with expectations. How they even came to share their feelings is a bit out of their control, the confidence to, because otherwise they would have kept it inside and left it that way. But with it said.. it's one of those, better to have said than not at all instances. Not really searching for results. ]
But, even now, I still do want to remember everything about you.
[ If there was more time, would they have been able to understand her fully? Or have they lost too much of themselves to be able to? Falling into their thoughts, they grow quiet again. ]
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sinks. It sinks. And part of them wants to know why, why she thinks that. A falter in that moment that allow that grip on their hand but, one gently pulls itself free. But not too far away, not at all, it comes to gently cup her cheek and their foreheads meet together again despite their earlier beginning backpedaling.
A small breath in, and out. It's okay. If just this once.. he tilts his face, gently kissing her. A share of affection, fond for her. Pulling back after, ignoring the way their heart hammers, and that swimming loneliness that churns in their own chest. ]
..Neither are you. [ If that's the implication here. If Siffrin cannot be the problem, then.. they don't want to hear that she is. When there are so many reasons. The Universe, for one. If things like fate exist out there. Those loops awaiting their immediate return. ] ..I don't think I could..
[ (ever really regret how i feel) when it's brought them so much comforting warmth, through letters after letter since her departure before. ]
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she closes her eyes. she shakes her head and opens her eyes. her lips curive into a small smile, grateful most of all. ]
Thank you, Siffrin. [ she pulls back a little, but her hold on their hands is still sure, even if it is a bit looser. she doesn't want to seem like she's forcing anything, one way or another. ]
I don't want you to regret anything. When you told me you wanted to remember everything you could of me, it made me unreasonably happy. I thought... you could come to understand me.
I do love you, Siffrin, but it may not be in the same way as you.
You don't have to say anything more, but I don't like leaving things unsaid.
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Even as they listen, when she comes to say they don't need to say anything more.. they still keep their gaze fixed down. ]
..It's alright. I didn't really... [ Expect anything. Go into this with expectations. How they even came to share their feelings is a bit out of their control, the confidence to, because otherwise they would have kept it inside and left it that way. But with it said.. it's one of those, better to have said than not at all instances. Not really searching for results. ]
But, even now, I still do want to remember everything about you.
[ If there was more time, would they have been able to understand her fully? Or have they lost too much of themselves to be able to? Falling into their thoughts, they grow quiet again. ]