[ yves lets his hand rest against siffrin's cheek, understanding. he's felt that way before—to be so shocked that others would reach out. so he'll be the one to do exactly that, to try to dispel any worries about siffrin ever feeling like yves used to. ]
I do. [ and he's confident about it. he's never felt like it would be hard to tell siffrin anything—he's just a little out of practice. more than that, ] But right now... I've had longer to make peace with this, because I've been thinking about it for a while.
If it's a surprise for you... it's okay if we focus on you for a little bit, right?
[ Yves really is so kind. Spoiling Siffrin in ways they could not explain in words, if because it's way too embarrassing to. And.. don't really need to. They ignore the temptation to curl more into that hand. ]
Aah.. that's true. The idea of it all is still trying to settle in my head. And you already know what you're going to do, right?
[ What Yves plans to do at the end? Where he may go? Still, there's that telltale guilt. Having pulled him away.. ]
I'm sorry. [ Habitual, the need to apologize, to not push away, slip into what they're used to. Have to keep up. ] I'll be okay. ..But.. I won't turn you away.
[ Because they're selfish and feel like time is even more limited than ever. ]
I have to talk it over with Adolphe but... I do know what I want, at the end of everything.
[ which is amazing for him to say, as someone who wasn't sure for so long. who felt like he didn't deserve to be alive as much as other people because he didn't have that same motivation but... now there's hope. ]
... what about you? What are your plans? What do you expect to happen?
What was on your mind? [ when you felt like walking away? ]
Are you waiting until we see them again to talk to him about it?
[ It isn't too surprising, or even too hard to guess, just based on what they've heard but.. it also makes sense to wait than discuss over letters. Even so, they're glad he knows what it will be. Relieved that he's decided on something. As the question comes back, they grow quiet. ]
...Nothing different. Just to everything before. Continue trying to find a way out of the loops. [ Those triple digit numbers hanging over their head but. What's a bit more? They're used to it. ] If I could... get the answers I needed though, before I went back, maybe I'd be able to break it out sooner but.
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I do. [ and he's confident about it. he's never felt like it would be hard to tell siffrin anything—he's just a little out of practice. more than that, ] But right now... I've had longer to make peace with this, because I've been thinking about it for a while.
If it's a surprise for you... it's okay if we focus on you for a little bit, right?
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Aah.. that's true. The idea of it all is still trying to settle in my head. And you already know what you're going to do, right?
[ What Yves plans to do at the end? Where he may go? Still, there's that telltale guilt. Having pulled him away.. ]
I'm sorry. [ Habitual, the need to apologize, to not push away, slip into what they're used to. Have to keep up. ] I'll be okay. ..But.. I won't turn you away.
[ Because they're selfish and feel like time is even more limited than ever. ]
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[ which is amazing for him to say, as someone who wasn't sure for so long. who felt like he didn't deserve to be alive as much as other people because he didn't have that same motivation but... now there's hope. ]
... what about you? What are your plans? What do you expect to happen?
What was on your mind? [ when you felt like walking away? ]
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[ It isn't too surprising, or even too hard to guess, just based on what they've heard but.. it also makes sense to wait than discuss over letters. Even so, they're glad he knows what it will be. Relieved that he's decided on something. As the question comes back, they grow quiet. ]
...Nothing different. Just to everything before. Continue trying to find a way out of the loops. [ Those triple digit numbers hanging over their head but. What's a bit more? They're used to it. ] If I could... get the answers I needed though, before I went back, maybe I'd be able to break it out sooner but.
[ (...) ]
Who knows?