[ Siffrin will always seek contact, but it seems harder to try and reach out for after everything they've done. Between Uruha's death and the expulsion. Wouldn't people find them disgusting? A monster? They try not to think about it, but they grip the cup a bit tighter. ]

...It's just the way I'm used to. To loop forward. [ There are a bit more kinder ways, but they didn't get to try it. The image of floating water coming to mind. ] Though I would have rather not had anyone else to have seen.

[ But it's too late now. What's done is done. Their eye drifts to a close, exhausted. ]

Marcoh might never be able to forgive me. [ (that's okay, it's what i deserve) ] It's alright if he hates me for it. I can be fine with that.