[ The sound of that nickname comes and they flinch a little, preparing for that backlash. That Siffrin messed up. That they ruined this. That for some reason, Yves won't dare look at him anymore or even talk to him or even reach out to them -
Their chest hurts, shame and guilt swimming in their head and a bit of fear. But that hand catches their own and they freeze, releasing a breath and those earlier emotions simmer to a quiet lull. A squeeze comes and they have to stop themselves from gripping too hard like he might let go.
Their heart stutters, something like surprise and confusion at being told they are treasured. Never expecting to hear words like that uttered to them. But those next words come and they ignore that ache, even as acceptance and understanding is already felt and there. Expectant. ]
I don't. [ ..Oops, that came out badly. Idiot speaking their thoughts confidently without even thinking about it, even though they know it to be true. Siffrin doesn't deserve better. They don't believe they deserve.. anything, really.] That.. What I mean is.. You don't need to be.
..It's fine, as is. I wasn't expecting anything. [ A smile, to reassure him, even as nerves start to get the better of them. They shouldn't have said anything. Stupid. They ruin everything and have no way to go back. A breath in, and out. ] I just.. wanted to at least say it, while I still can.
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Their chest hurts, shame and guilt swimming in their head and a bit of fear. But that hand catches their own and they freeze, releasing a breath and those earlier emotions simmer to a quiet lull. A squeeze comes and they have to stop themselves from gripping too hard like he might let go.
Their heart stutters, something like surprise and confusion at being told they are treasured. Never expecting to hear words like that uttered to them. But those next words come and they ignore that ache, even as acceptance and understanding is already felt and there. Expectant. ]
I don't. [ ..Oops, that came out badly. Idiot speaking their thoughts confidently without even thinking about it, even though they know it to be true. Siffrin doesn't deserve better. They don't believe they deserve.. anything, really.] That.. What I mean is.. You don't need to be.
..It's fine, as is. I wasn't expecting anything. [ A smile, to reassure him, even as nerves start to get the better of them. They shouldn't have said anything. Stupid. They ruin everything and have no way to go back. A breath in, and out. ] I just.. wanted to at least say it, while I still can.
[ That's all. ]